|Um, yea...this has been me the past few months!|
Okay, so I have been on a bit of a hiatus...A bit you might say??? How about three months? Yep, it's been three months since I have blogged! Why so long you ask? Well, I've been contemplating. Okay, contemplating mixed with a little bitching, mixed with A LOT of complaining and the occasional tantrum. Makes for not so nice blogging! I feel that I'm having my own version of the dreaded "mid-life crisis"...even though I am sooooo not mid-life!
I have been contemplating...contemplating my life, my direction, what's next for me and my lack of motivation.
I have been bitching...bitching about the fact that I can't work in Germany, that I really can NOT do another coffee morning-P.S. Please still invite me to coffee, I have a few more left in me-and bitching about the fact that I want to put roots down in a place where I am not saying good-bye to my friends every six months.
The complaining pretty much echoes the bitching, although apparently my husband tells me that I have been complaining if someone's shoes squeak too loudly on the tile, if someone chews their raw veggies too loudly or even if someone breaths too heavily.
We won't discuss the tantrum as I'm sure that it wasn't pretty and may have involved "ugly crying".
Yea, being in my proximity hasn't been a pleasant place to be lately, so I figured "why subject my readers to my crap?" Be glad I spared you! However, yesterday I was at a party and my friend KC-see, I told you I'd mention you-asked me why I hadn't been blogging? I explained it to her and she gave me the motivation I had been looking for! "Please, blog! I love to read your blog, it's REAL, and people need to see the real side of Expat life as well!" We then went on to discuss how so many people think that the life of a "trailing spouse" is so glamourous! Don't get me wrong it is, but once again, I mention that the day to day crap is boring. You really lose all sense of who you are as a person. You are the expat's wife, the expat kids' mom, but you are put to the side. It is a role that I have willingly agreed to, but that doesn't mean that I have always loved it or will never complain about it. So, thanks to a little push from KC, I am back! I will complain, I will share my truths and my travels, my sadness when people leave and the longing that I will always have for my home country, but I will also share with you what a wonderful, amazing journey this is, because after all....It's About the Journey!