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| Um, yea...this has been me the past few months! |
Okay, so I have been on a bit of a hiatus...A bit you might say??? How about three months? Yep, it's been three months since I have blogged! Why so long you ask? Well, I've been contemplating. Okay, contemplating mixed with a little bitching, mixed with A LOT of complaining and the occasional tantrum. Makes for not so nice blogging! I feel that I'm having my own version of the dreaded "mid-life crisis"...even though I am sooooo not mid-life!
I have been contemplating...contemplating my life, my direction, what's next for me and my lack of motivation.
I have been bitching...bitching about the fact that I can't work in Germany, that I really can NOT do another coffee morning-P.S. Please still invite me to coffee, I have a few more left in me-and bitching about the fact that I want to put roots down in a place where I am not saying good-bye to my friends every six months.
The complaining pretty much echoes the bitching, although apparently my husband tells me that I have been complaining if someone's shoes squeak too loudly on the tile, if someone chews their raw veggies too loudly or even if someone breaths too heavily.
We won't discuss the tantrum as I'm sure that it wasn't pretty and may have involved "ugly crying".
Yea, being in my proximity hasn't been a pleasant place to be lately, so I figured "why subject my readers to my crap?" Be glad I spared you! However, yesterday I was at a party and my friend KC-see, I told you I'd mention you-asked me why I hadn't been blogging? I explained it to her and she gave me the motivation I had been looking for! "Please, blog! I love to read your blog, it's REAL, and people need to see the real side of Expat life as well!" We then went on to discuss how so many people think that the life of a "trailing spouse" is so glamourous! Don't get me wrong it is, but once again, I mention that the day to day crap is boring. You really lose all sense of who you are as a person. You are the expat's wife, the expat kids' mom, but you are put to the side. It is a role that I have willingly agreed to, but that doesn't mean that I have always loved it or will never complain about it. So, thanks to a little push from KC, I am back! I will complain, I will share my truths and my travels, my sadness when people leave and the longing that I will always have for my home country, but I will also share with you what a wonderful, amazing journey this is, because after all....It's About the Journey!
I miss you Dena! KC can be a great motivator. Here on the other side I think the days are pretty boring. And I don't have any trips to plan. We were just talking last night about me going back to work because even Samara seems bored some days!
ReplyDeleteOh and I miss you!! I really needed a kick start and boy she gave it to me!! I think the days are boring wherever we are some days. Maybe it's the time we are at in our lives??? I think that some times I need to appreciate what I have and not always think that the grass is greener!
DeleteGlad you're back! I was wondering about your blog the other day and missing it...and missing you! XOXO!
ReplyDeleteThx so much for missing me!! Helps to know that I have people that look forward to my blog!! Miss you too!!
DeleteSo glad you are back! I missed you! I can completely identify with everything in your post. It really is all about the journey and I am looking forward to reading about yours. Wishing you all the best for 2014! xx
ReplyDeleteGina I can't thank you enough for your comment. It really helps that people "miss"you!! I am so going to practice my own mantra this year. It's About the Journey and I am going to enjoy mine!
Delete"Keep it real, girl! Makes the rest of us feel better knowing we're not alone with those same feelings. Expat life isn't always unicorns and glitter. (and I love the 'fun lollipop triple dipped in psycho' above...hilarious!)"
ReplyDeleteI don't know, my life is always unicorns and glitter…NOT!!! Thanks so much for your comment. Helps to know that people can relate!
DeleteDon't be too hard on yourself, friend! You are definitely making a difference in the lives of all the people with whom you share your time, talents and refreshing humor!
ReplyDeleteOh Thank you so much!!!! It's nice to know people enjoy my sick humor :)
DeleteThank you so much for sharing your experience. This is how I have been feeling ( crazy and a bit insane) lacking motivation and often wondering if I am the only one. Through tears you have made me smile. Thank you again.
ReplyDeleteI am so glad that I could make you smile Colleen! I don't care what people say it's not all that easy! I will try to keep you entertained and keep it real!
DeleteIt IS all about the journey. And I took a break over the holidays and came back refreshed. We all need that once in awhile so we can live our lives and have more to blog about. And blogs are a little like mob bosses. They keep pulling us back IN!
ReplyDeleteDon't they just Linda!! Glad that you came back refreshed.
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